Monday, May 23, 2016

Alone...

Maybe it is an addiction to want to have, to want to be part of a close group of friends. Moving and life's unexpected trials have isolated me. I'm to the point where I am sad we've moved so many times. We have made great friends here and there, but I haven't stayed anywhere long enough to become part of a group and stay part of it. Even more isolating is the fact that I now walk a different track than most of my friends--the one of having a special needs child. Maybe I should get off social media. Because when I see people reunite and get together I am saddened because I wasn't even extended an invitation. I understand I can't be a part of every little thing. And maybe people assume my life is too tied up in making sure my five-year-old doesn't wander away, permanently. Maybe it is. Please don't reply to this post. I think people admire me because I can do a lot. But sometimes I just want to be a regular person and know what it's like to be included....