Thursday, February 9, 2012

Pains....

Warning: whiny post ahead


I am reflecting back on the past year and realize that it has been the most painful of my life, thus far.  (And if I'm lucky--the last!!)

A year ago I was pregnant and it was actually pretty good.  I did have to deal with a hip going out several times, as well as my back.  That had never happened before, with my other pregnancies, but my husband reminded me that I was no longer a spring chicken, yes, too true.  I worked through the pain and took it easy (ha, ha).

Labor, was labor, which meant pain, but that was expected.

I had surgery last May and recovery meant pain.  But, I got slowly better.

Cue the past few months--real pain has ensued!  Mastitis and thrush.  Or maybe it was thrush, then mastitis, then thrush.   I just don't know. 

All I know is thrush is worse than labor.   It is the worst pain I have ever, ever felt in my life.  Enough to leave me crying and practically incapacitated.  Enough to cause me to lock myself in my bathroom and wish to die.  Enough to get me to crawl to the doctor and pharmacy to get help!  (You know me and "toughing" things out...)

My heart goes out to any of you who've ever had thrush before.  I can now empathize with you.  What did our poor ancestors do before there were modern medicines?  Voluntary masectomies?   That thought definitely crossed my mind.

I feel grateful that the sun has finally risen on the dark night of pain.

7 comments:

Ben and Carrie said...

What a year, my word! You are a very tough woman, Kiersten. Through all of this pain, almost none of which I knew about, you have served in countless ways and are always willing to help others. You are amazing! I have had mastitis numerous times, and it is miserable, so if thrush is worse, I am so sorry! I hope the pains are gone and will stay away! Here's to a pain-free year!

Shea said...

I can't say "I feel your pain" because I never had thrush or mastitis. The worst I ever had was a clogged duct but I have heard it is horrible. I had a atrophied intestine once and I thought it was worse than labor so maybe I can kind of relate!LOL! Glad it is better now.

Micaela said...

Oh man! I had mastitis 3 times with Samuel and thought I was going to die. I can't imagine it being worse. I am so sorry. I hope that the antibiotics work well!

Melissa said...

There is nothing worse than those two conditions. I've been there. Wean the kid if you must but stop the suffering.

Kristina said...

I'm sorry that you have been is so much pain. Hopefully it is all done!

Rochelle said...

Yikes!! So glad you are feeling better. That sounds awful!!

Susan said...

Wow! That sounds painful! Robyn had thrush but fortunately I never got it from her. I have had kidney stones -- painful but probably not the same type of pain.